I'm seeing someone else... but, I'm still married.

I'm seeing someone else... but, I'm still married.  

This is terrible.  I've crossed a line I didn't want to cross.  I'm still married, but now have a girlfriend as well.    

My wife was never a partner, never an equal.  Her uncontrollable rage, her obsession with religion, her co-dependency.  If it weren't for our children, I would have left years ago.    I'm seeing someone.  She's amazing.  So laid back.  I can talk to her about anything, and she's just cool about all of it.  She's brilliant, does genetics research.  She's also a part-time model and actress, absolutely stunningly beautiful.  Wicked sense of humor.  The sex is phenomenal.  She's easily one of the coolest people I've ever met; I'd be proud just to be friends with her.  We are good friends, plus so much more.  It feels like the beginning of a real relationship, in every sense of the word.    

She's also going through a terrible situation with her pseudo-ex.  They still live together, sort of.  He knows about me, though my wife doesn't know about her.  She's saving up to move out, and move on.   Meanwhile my situation is getting more complex.  I finally convinced my wife to see a doctor for her mood swings.  I can't leave, knowing that she could substitute our kids for me as the target for her anger.    

Anyhow.  Everything about this situation is deeper and more complex than I could possibly write in this blog post, time and privacy notwithstanding. Glad I can at least get some of this off of my chest.  I feel like I'm in a dark tunnel with my current marriage, but now there's a bit of light at the end of it.  


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