hey thanks for the post to my wall shoot me a mail here sometime and let me know whats your story your intro is kind of confusing

Your children can still have your family values instilled in them when they are with you. If you stand by those values and love your kids with all your heart...they will know where you stand and will respect you for it! I am a firm believer that our life path that we have traveled is a huge learning time. All of the things I have been through have made me who I am and the strong person that I am. I look back at my family growing up. My parents did not have a good marriage. My mother worked outside the home and was rarely around. We were farmers so my dad was working a lot too. I pretty much raised myself and my younger sister. BUT there are 5 of us kids and we turned out ok. My family is my rock. I found out when my first husband was killed how much they love me and care for me. It doesn't matter day or night ..if any of us needed anything we would be there. So what I am saying is that even though you are not with your kids all the time...your family values will come through in them and you will see it in the future. I also look at my bf's kids. All they have ever known is the drama that they have lived with. But those kids are close to each other. They look out for each other..and it shows...Your kids will be ok. And so will you! Step by step..day by day. It will be ok!

I'm goin out this evening. maybe just to get of the the house that my children don't run around in anymore. pretty empty . there's a few girls that i know hold interest in me. it feels shamful because im still under a hire rule to defend the constitutions of my marraige, even if i know it's not right for me. I'm confused, scared , depressed yet somehow ,still hopeful that i'll be a better person becouse of these things that are happening to my innocent children. I feel they will never have a chance at the family values my parents have shown me and my kin. I guess I'll let anyone listening know how it went. thanks for listening and returning feed back. ps.. read paula 1 and give her feed back. she holds power of wisdom that most of us don't want to believe we need.