I think you are not alone when you say if you knew then what you know now, different steps would have been taken. Oh, the 20/20 vision of hindsight, yes. But, yes, it is what it is and we have to take what we have in our lives presently and work with it to our advantage. Don't think your ex isn't thinking about you anymore, how could he not? 30yrs? Hello?? I'm sure he knows you're the best he'll get, he may not ever say it, at least not now, but know in your heart that you guys spent the best years together. Had a family. And NO ONE can take that place in him. You will be the one he refers back to when telling stories of the past. I bet if he's talking w/another woman he'll say "WE went here" and "WE did this" without even realizing it, ha! I say for now, better yourself. As far as him, que sera sera.

Wow, masters degree, that's fantastic!!! I'll bee too stewped ta tawk weth ya ef ya ghet wunna dem thangs. :-)

Hi TIML, sorry it took me forever to write back. I did get your note on my wall, thank you. Wow so you been w/this one man since a teenager and now 50, that is a lot of time. I think that after you get through the divorce and have a clean emotional plate, you will find that when you meet that next special person you will have butterflies like a 16yr old meeting a guy for the first time!! Don't worry about that right now, get yourself through this rough patch. When it's the right time, it'll happen. Don't think "oh it's too late to fall in love with someone", love is ageless. But just think how much more knowledgeable you are this time around! Write me back when you can.