After all the hell I've been through I'm still trying to reconcile everything. My main drive is that I want my son in my life everyday. I have no problem with him being the center of my world. It would be just like before my wife deserted me. I'm truly scared for his development. I've not been let to see him for a month and when I finally see him, he won't say "dada" anymore, just "momma" I tried to coax it out of him but it seems as if he was trained to not call for me anymore. I'm so frustrated because my wife in her care was letting him die, almost didn't make it to his first birthday. Since I visited so much I was able to watch how his sickness progressed. It was something like the Rota virus, or mimics it. He went from 26lbs to 18lbs, he gave me the death stare one evening after violently vomiting all the bit of food I fed him. I've seen this look before from being in the service. I demanded that the pediatric doctor was called so we could take him to the hospital. My wife I fear to a point that it shivers my spine, I believe would have put it off till morning and probably found him dead. The doc let us take him to the hospital and after an I.V. he turned around and perked right up. Seems that his body really just needed a little boost and assistants to kick what ever was making him sick. Even after she left me and moved in with her mom's I was still true to caring for him. But I'm continually being called a monster and terrible person. Wife and mother in law are calling me an addict to my pain meds which were prescribed by professionals and am constantly being told I need to seek a mental professional. I feel that her family is considerably dysfunctional and with how two faced her family are they truly should seek some mental assistance. Back to the topic, Michigan is a terrible state where the mother always gets the child unless you can prove they are doing drugs and beating the child. That is truly about the only way to get the child unless the mother consents to giving the father full custody. So in my defense I've been trying to make it work again