I am sorry you had such a hard day yesterday... those will get easier as time goes on. Going through this sucks. Nobody wants to be going through the divorce process. I certainly don't. But I cant stay with somebody who lies, cheats & puts their hands on me. I struggle just as much as anyone out here does. I ride the emotional roller coaster every single day. The only way to get through is to ride it. So one day I said I need to put this down on paper. Once I wrote it out and went back and reread it. I was like wow. I feel liberated in a sense. It really helps to sit down and write out things. As time goes on, I realize even more things I no longer have to deal with by being married to somebody who was soo self centered. : )

Now is my time of gathering information and reflection. I'm going to have to be the one to decide what I want my life to be. Right now, I'm trying to decide whether to divorce my husband or work it out. It seems like an uphill ordeal either way. I ask for God's grace and mercy.

Hi, welcome to d360. Let me know if I can help with anything at all. I thought I’d send this quicky ‘how-to-get-started’ note and leave it on your wall. I hope it helps you. Here’s what I usually do here. Every day I 1) log on to the site. Simply type in your email and password to get started, then I come here, to the MyStuff/Profile page so I can see if anyone has answered my blog or question. If they have, I click on it and answer them back. 2) Then I check the ‘scroll’..That’s the stuff at the top of this page. It changes every time a friend does something, like post a blog or comment on a question. TRICK: the more friends you have here, the more your ‘scroll’ changes. So make sure to befriend lots of people. 3) Then I usually change my status…that’s up there, on top of this page, by your name. click it and type in whatever you are doing…’getting coffee’ or ‘going to lunch’. When you update that, it notifies all of your friends in their scroll…so they know you are online now. 4) Then I usually add a new question or a new blog post. That’s easy to do…from here look up a little on the page and see the words Blog and Advice. Right next to each one is “add new’. Click that and start typing. Hit submit and your post goes directly to the site home page for everyone to see and read and comment on. Blogs are usually longer and more detailed, while Advice/Answers are usually quick questions you need help on right now. Read some other members to get a feel for it and then start your own blogs and questions! 5) Then I start answering other peoples stuff…I’ll read blogs and post my comments…and I’ll read questions and post my answers to try to help other people. That’s the goal here. All of our opinions and experiences really help. 6) Then I’ll start writing on some of my friends wall…..that’s this area right here. It’s really good for quick questions to one member or personal jokes or a little note. 7) Click the People tab to see what members have something in common with you (based on your tags) and say Hi. Thanks and welcome…paula