Ha! Yeah, sometimes I'll read people's blogs/comments and chuckle at misspellings or the grammar then I'll look at my own stuff and be like "Oh shit!" haaha! I'm the worst!! I just start typing like I'm talking then I'll hit the submit key and see something, ha! Hey I just noticed you're in TX. I was in Galveston last year (Aug?) when that hurricane hit (was it Javier?). Well, I (we) left like a day before and went back 2 weeks later and that was a trip to see. Boats on the side of freeways, places we ate at wiped out. Devastating.

Hey poopsie! You posted on your on wall, ya know?! Hey your avatar pic name (peregrine falcon?) sounds like a cool drink, ha! Yeah, I was a very happy-go-lucky person before him. I was writing b/f w/a friend and realized what it was...I was blissfully naiive before him. Yes, I've had many lives, but walked thru life unaware of so many bad things if that makes sense. He took that away. I hope to go back to how I was before but sometimes I wonder. It's kind of like having the innocence of a child taken away by a molester, ya know? Don't worry about meeting/dating and all that jazz right now, get through this hell and once it's over, get yourself back, then worry about that.

Today...I cried even more after I talked with the realtor. You see.... our home would have been paid for in 6 years. I guess I have been in denial for 2 years. Kept thinking he would humble himself and see what he has lost. Instead, he has done nothing. Even started a new existance with another unsuspecting soul. I don't want him back , but after all the years ...... I did have visions of him finally owning up to his illness and all the pain he has caused, thinking there might be a glimmer of hope for the children's sake. For the moment this house and land is how we are connected aside from the children. I still feel manipulated and controlled. Chills travel over my body when he comes around. I am sickened by his Disney Dad antics in front of his new GF. I hope I live to get thru all this and finally have my own home that he does not have access to! I want to never have to see him again, but I know that the children will keep us in touch. I want to run so far away....Will I ever truly be free? I haven't really started dating because I feel I must get myself stable again. Right now...just don't have anything to offer a relationship...but I do get soooo lonely for companionship.