so badly I want him to stop trying to track down his girl. I told him I caught him, been trying to make things better even with the knowledge he wants another woman. See I feel like I drug him into the dark hole cause he is weak and most people have weaknesses. So once again I try to take the blame for this...shut off the fake phone.....no emails....no texting. (no he does not know this other woman was me...can't do that) He is telling me so much bull. Undying love..yadayada but he is sending frigging poetry to his girl trying to keep her interest. I hate him, but tell him I love him. I don't want to give him any excuse to go seek acceptance, love and approval from anyone, cause that is what he claims is the reasoning for what he does. Nope not true. I really am just biding my time, wasting it, really. I am slowly getting myself out of debt. Heading back to classes in January to get some type of something to get a real job. I only make about 20-24 grand a year and believe me the debt I am in (mostly all of his stuff under my name) would bury me, quickly. So I am trying to keep strong. And I will keep strong. I live with a liar. I am one too, I guess, but I know way too much about this man's other side. I don't like it at all. It is hard, but bottom line is I want to free of this. I will be free of this.

hi, welcome to d360. let me know if i can help with anything. there are a bunch of things you can do to get started here. 1. scroll up this page a bit and see where it says Advice....click Add new and start writing a question. when you hit submit, it will be posted to the entire community and land on the home page of the site, and on the community page of the site for every member to see, read and comment. 2. add a new blog. blogs are more like detailed stories about your life or situation..or really anything you want to talk about....(the advice is really a direct question you want answered now). you can read other members blogs by clicking on the tab at the top of this page called, blogs. 3. you can befriend members. simply read something you like and send a friend request to them. the more friends you have the better....whenever they do something, it shows up on your scroll, at the top of this page, your MyStuff page. 4. you can post on other members walls...this is the wall. it's really for more personal message. and if you want to be private, you can 5. send internal emails to other members. go to your inbox and type in the members name and send an email. 6. best bet is to log on everyday and go your mystuff page...here. see what's new...if people have commented on your blogs or your questions. see what your friends are doing. see if someone wrote on your wall. 7. after that, i usually head to the community home page. it's the tab at the top called community. that's where i can see all the latest questions from everyone on the site. you should answer questions when you can. the more help we can all get, the better. your perspective counts. 8. then i head to the blog home page. it's a few tabs over. i read the latest blogs and make comments there too. i hope this information helps you get started. i'm here to help. let me know if you have any questions. thanks, paula.