Another day... Some go by quickly while others linger on and on. Some are good days while others are dreary and sad. Today is one of those days that is lingering, dreary and sad. My husband and I had agreed to separate but he spent maybe a total of two nights away and on those two nights I had no time to be alone to cry it out or think clearly. I really feel as though the love is lost and although he has stated that he still loves me and really wants to rtemain married, I feel nothing but pain, hurt and confusion. I know the hurt is from the fact that he felt he needed to confide in someone else, I do truley beleive that nothing sexual happened between the two of them that is only because I caught it just before that part of their relationship began. The fact that he developed any type of relationship with another woman hurts deeply because of the problems we had before we were married. He promised before we married and the day we said I do that his past was behind him and he has changed for the better. I am starting to believe that he is incapable of change, even if in his heart he wants too. I'm scared to walk out because we have 4 young children and no income at all, with the economy as it is, its not easy to find something that will be enough for me to put my kids in daycare and be self sufficient. I feel as though I am stuck. Then there is the issue with my dad, who doesn't know all the details of my martial issues, but he seems to really believe that my husband is a great stand up guy who is just under a lot of pressure. My dad says that he is young and working to support a large family.... is that really an excuse? I think that he see's a younger version of himself in my husband, and has sympathy for him...but what about the bs this man is putting your daughter through? I've been praying about what is the best move for me, and I'm not 100% sure that I've been answered or maybe it's not the answer that I am ready for.....it's so hard to start over after 13yr of being with someone. Hopefully oneday soon I will gain the strength that so many of

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