Thank you for you help on the support group issue. I will check into it. My issue is more about stress from other things along with my failed marriage. Thanks again.

I think most men have shit for brains. I agree with you. You have every reason to want him to get killed. I want mine to burn in hell. It lasts longer. I think he should have to live through what I have lived through. The problem is, he is so self centered that even with the same experiences his heart is so cold that he wouldn't suffer the way I have. My revenge at first was in having really great sex with much younger men. It made me feel good to have such a good time in the same bed and on the same couch where he was with me and treated me like shit. Now I think about him a lot less. It's all about me now. Unfortunately, there are still legal matters and I have an idiot for an attorney. I hate getting dragged back down.

I wasn't accusing, you just said it with such conviction. I am trying so hard to get mad, I can't seem to get past the hurt. I don't know why. He is in Houston right now moving her 400 miles to our small town. He's a sex addict that cheated on me repeatedly with porn and prostitutes. But I always viewed it as an illness and I stood by his side and supported him. So I go through a bout of depression after a miscarriage and he can't handle my inattention so he goes and finds someone else? He said they never intended for anything to happen so that's why they think it's "meant to be". He's trying to work on his addiction and become a better man. I stood by him 22 years, and gave him 2 beautiful daughters and he bails on us? I know we are better off. It's just so hurtful that he left me "alone" and he moves on with his life. Everyone tells me that karma will get him. My girls refuse to meet the other woman so I guess that's a good thing. I just feel SO betrayed. He said he left because he doesn't want to hurt us anymore and we remind him of all the horrible things he did to us. How am I supposed to react to that? He says he's not good enough for me? What does that say about "her"? I'm just so confused.