Thanks Ann. Isn't it weird how now I do not care if I walk around crying. Not even embarrassed anymore. Sorry you day was also so hard. Take Care.

Oh Ann, I so understand where you are at. Here are a couple things that my support network said to me over and over - they became my mantra and trust me it works. 1. You've done nothing wrong. You believed in your marriage vows and trusted him. 2. This is about him and not you. Trust me on this one. 3. Don't try to rationalize or have this make sense. It won't - because, it's all about him. I really hope this helps. It helped me. Oh, and unless you are really really really going to try to work it out (which I did for a while), don't keep sharing your inner thoughts - he probably doesn't care. Oh, and he'll probably want to try to be "friends". I tried this with my STBX.... he wanted to have his cake and eat it too. It may work for you, I'm not saying don't try, but don't get caught up in "ooohhh he's calling me, he still love me". Don't fall into that trap. Also, keep writing here. It helps.

ooooooo ham, beans, cornbread???? I'm coming to your house for dinner! *chuckles*