I'm still here 

I know their are a few people out there who know my situation and I wanted to check in and let you know I'm hanging in there. I've been trying to find a job. Trying to stay calm through this whole thing is tough. Standing my ground is tough too but the anger that I felt through the years has helped more than anything because I know I was treated wrong and I'm trying to stand on my own two feet. The anger keeps me from caving in because if he saw me start to cave Id never get rid of the stbx. He is still coming around wanting to help. I don't trust him and I never will. The love is gone and has been for several years now. Get this; he has finally said I could have the divorce and still live in the house, he will pay the bills. But he wanted me to live with him and be a part of his life. He doesn't want to go through the lawyers he wants us to sit down and decide what is right.The deal is I put a lot of money into this house from inheritance that came to me. He is now saying the payments we were supposed to be making to his mom were not made and she owns the house. And his mother wants to give the house to him and his sisters. But that he will find some way to get me the money. Yeah right, a load of bs if you ask me, but I don't know all the facts yet.