I know it is impossible right now and not even the right thing to do until the divorce is final but I wish more than anything I could have some form of interaction with a woman tonight. I don't mean sex either. Just a nice long conversation about anything and everything would be wonderful. A conversation over dinner sounds perfect. I don't know how much longer I can live like this. I try to do things to take my mind off this loneliness but sometimes it just becomes over whelming. Living in my cave on my makeshift bed in the basement isn't helping. I've been existing down here for a few months now and it is getting very old! I haven't had a meaningful conversation with a woman in years and I'm really missing that tonight.
OK. I have vented and I guess now is the time to take my own advice and find something to take my mind off of this. Dang I hate Saturday nights! Maybe I'll try and read a good book.