I have come the conclusion that I am in a very weird place in my life. 7 months separated and now finally realizing that I no longer know who I am. I have spent so many years being something to everyone else that I have lost me along the way.
What has happened to me? Where did the fun person I use to be go? Who am I now? Trying to redefine this things is troublesome and yet strangely enough I do not know the answers to these questions. I have been a wife and mother...but not a woman who was loved by my husband. Not a woman who is deserving of happiness. I am realizing that I deserve better and more in my life. Why do we settle for less that what we deserve. How do you reclaim something that you are not sure if you ever really had to begin with. Life goes on...that is how.
Now I sit and ponder what the future will hold. Too many questions and not enough answers. I guess I need to let the cards play themselves out. I am not very good at poker!!