This morning was a bit depressing. My daughter was in the local 4th of July parade and I went to watch by myself. I spoke to my, what is he now, my boyfriend? my ex-boyfriend? my what? and we are going to meet tomorrow to figure out whether or not we are going to "engage in a therapeutic process" together. The goal being to learn what we both do in relationships and then either move forward together or apart. At the moment, I'm not even sure which scenario I prefer. He was going to his parent's house today and I felt left out, although I have no right to as we are in the situation we are in right now. I would like to wave a magic wand and take it back to where it was when we were so happy, just a few months ago, but that's not possible.
Can't figure out what I want to do for the rest of the day. Maybe write, maybe a movie, maybe sit with my daughter and watch bad sitcoms. Nothing feels very satisfying. Last year this time we were just getting back from Costa Rica. I had a boyfriend that I was in love with and a lot of optimism. Not so much right now. I think the bad sitcom idea is the winner, though. If nothing else, a little laughter never hurts!
