My stbx came to me again tonight and was crying. He wasn't asking to get back together, but was apologizing for cheating and asking why our lives are so messed up (I actually feel like mine is going right for once), he was wishing we could go back 15 years, yada yada, etc.
For the first time I didn't feel anything. I didn't cry with him. I wasn't mad at him and asking why. All I could think of was you are such and idiot and you did all of this to yourself. I didn't say that to him. It was just a thought. I didn't feel the need to play counselor or comfort him through the situation.
I don't think I was feeling numb. That happened a couple of months ago. I have started moving on with my life and was actually a little irritated that I had to sit there and listen to this crap and pretend that I care.
It felt so good not to hurt.