On the night of june 14, 2008. My husband had just came home. It was a saturday and he had left the house around 2 pm, that day. He said he was going to go with some friends, help a friend of his friend, move out of his old apartment. As soon as he came in the house I heard his cell phone battery dying out!

He went into the bedroom and to charge his phone and left it on his nightstand.
Then he went into the bathroom and freshened up, got on some clean, comfortable close. I could see him do all this from the family room which is across our master suit. Then he told me "lets make some popcorn to watch some movies." Everything felt and seemed pretty normal and routine for a saturday night at home...

As we were on the process of getting ready to watch some movies, I was going around the house looking for my white head band, that is very comfortable and is not to tight on my head, so it doesn't give me a head ache. He was already in the family room setting everything up and checking his e-mails, (I would assume) because he was on his laptop computer.

I finally found my head band on his night stand. I believe I had left it there the night before. As I was getting it, I could see his cell phone light flashing, I touched it and I could see there was an unread text message.
I was hesitant for a minute, (because I never go through his stuff) on weather I should read it or not.
I could see the text message came from "SANCHEZ"; I said to my self; we don't know anyone by that name or last name?
I pressed the button to read the message, and it said:
MUUUAAA!!! (Short for kisses).
I stood there for what seemed for ever... I heard his foot steps approaching the bedroom and deleted the message!
I was scared he would find out what I was doing.

All the lights were off in the bedroom. I quickly ran to the bathroom door, and made it seem like if I were coming out of the bathroom.
He said "are you alright? "Did you finally found what you were looking for?"
I moved my head up and down, assuring him I had found what I was looking for... (Even if I had tried to answer him no words were coming out of my mouth; I was speechless).
I started shaking, like when you are cold.
He kept on insisting, if I was okay?

My mind was somewhere else, I felt hot and cold at the same time; I had goose bumps, even on my head, I felt like screaming at the top of my lungs; I felt confused and disoriented, it felt as if I had left my body!
I don't know what face I had, how I looked, or if I had changed colors, or what? I felt like passing out.
He kept on asking and insisting; if I was alright!
I could only shake my head up and down to everything he asked me.

I had never felt this way, I heard indistinct voices in my head, we were watching the movie, but all I could see was black, and I couldn't hear anything...
I started to feel dizzy and my mind was going at a thousand miles per hour, I could see images of us together and all of what we had been through together; I could see us both happy and at our best moments...

I started to feel sick, and yet again hot and cold at the same time.
I would look at him and only picture him with someone else.
He didn't notice me watching him, he was too busy watching the movie, we where supposed to be watching together...
I felt as if all the walls of my house were collapsing around me and making my space smaller and smaller. It felt as if I was going to go insane!

I asked myself why? At this point I wanted to cry as hard as I could.
Then I started to realize something that I had been ignoring for a long time. Deep down inside me, I knew; I already knew it all.
All this was just opening my eyes. He was cheating!!!
I had just choose to be blind and play dumb, make myself believe nothing was wrong!

All the time arriving home late, with a thousand of nonsense excuses, all his secretiveness with the phone bills, and deleting all of his browsed internet time in his laptop computer. His nervousness when his cell phone rang or beeped, when I was around. His long hours in the study room. Our intimate life had completely vanished. We had stopped going out together. His friends randomly came home anymore. And of course he didn't look at me the same way anymore...

I had confronted him about this issues (as he calls them) before, I remember it was not too long ago. I remember I told him that I felt he was much more distant and that we had not been intimate for a long time!? He said; he had too much on his mind about work and was tired and did not wanted to address the issue at that time.

I knew my marriage was not in it's best time and that we had much to work for. Amazingly he told me he was willing to put his all to make this work. We were going through rough times!
I swear I though about everything, and anything that he could be doing behind my back. I contemplated the idea of him having an affair. I even once jokingly asked him if he had been with another woman at some point during our marriage? And laughing, he said to me: "I would never do that because, having one is expensive enough." I laugh as well.

I started to get mad at myself for being dumb I just saw everything I had tried to save and worked so hard for, fade away... But I already knew or sort of had the notion he was indeed being unfaithful to me. Why had I done nothing to prevent what was coming? This question repeatedly sounded on my mind and it had started to annoy me!

I felt afraid and lost, I didn't know what to do or how to confront him, I didn't even know how to even begin my opening sentence.