The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly... 

This really hasn't been the best few days.  The more he begs for more chances, the angrier I get.  The good-at least I'm finally getting my point across.  The bad-Its getting to where we are arguing every day now, and I can't get past my resentment towards him.  The ugly-it's been getting nasty, and I started letting my true rage show-via a nasty name calling bout as of late.  So uncharacteristic of me, and I hate what this is turning me into.  The bitter, angry person I DON'T want to be.  I did apologize for that.  And after stewing for a moment, I agreed that I would go to counselor with him (yeah, NOW he wants to go-I think I mentioned that already) to decide if we really just want to do the divorce.  I know I do.  I can't make myself fall in love again, and I don't want to try to make myself do it either.  I've put myself through enough.  But I DON"T want us to be enemies.  I want us to to at least be friends and work together for the sake of our child.   I'm just so, so sad today.  I wish all of this would just disappear.