Am I doing the same thing? Am I being just as dishonorable as you? I’ve been struggling with this for a while…
Yes, I will admit that I have posted a profile on online networks.
However, I have been completely honest with myself and the persons that
I meet. I told this to a friend and she was shocked. She said that I
was doing the same thing as you, cheating, being dishonorable. Wow! I
hadn’t thought that I was. I can see her point. So do I stop? Do I sit
at home lonely and just wait until you find the courage to make the
appropriate decision? You were the one that asked me to leave you
alone, give you space, let you go.
Now, I find out that you are still going out with all the young,
single guys and meeting beautiful girls…how is this being honorable.
How can you expect to FIND yourself if you are going to behave this
way?! You are still a married man. I am also appalled that these guys
would be okay with your behavior. It is very disappointing. And, also
very sad. These guys are looking for a relationship like the one that
we had/have and here you are trying to have the single life. You have
not even given yourself time to be alone. You know what you are doing
to me when you go out, whether I know or not. And if you can live with
slapping me in the face like that then I feel sorry for you.
This is a very small town and I know that things will get back to
both of us. I will find out about your behavior and you will probably
find out that I’ve been out with guys. The thing is I am looking for a
friend and you are looking for a f#$%*…So, If you have heard about my
friends and going out and think that I am giving up on us and am
getting over you, you are wrong. So do not justify your behavior by my
behavior. You asked for this remember. You are the one that should be
feeling guilty. You are the one that has been having an emotional
affair with another woman or more…
I don’t know what to do. You and I have not spoken in over 2 weeks.
I don’t know if your father is still living. I don’t know if you’ve had
time to think about our relationship. I just don’t know.