Well, I have been trying to decide what to do for some time now and I knew I wanted out, but wasn't sure how to do it. I had decided to find a job and save up for an apartment then move. This morning he got up and said he was going to mow a lawn to get us some money, and left I guess around noon. We had talked last night and he said he really loved me and was going to try extra hard to make things right. I had asked him again about all the secret phone calls and about him erasing the numbers from the phone, he just said  I was worrying too much. At 7:30 this evening the young man that took him to the job came in and handed my daughter a 20 and said that he told him to give it to me and that he would find his own ride home later. I instantly knew something was wrong. I called him repeatedly, but nothing. Then I was looking through the phone he had used and found a message to his friend asking for a ride and place to stay, and the friends girlfriends number had called him immediately after. I spoke with his friend, he is out of town working, and he was unaware that my husband was with his girlfriend. The kids and I have absolutely nothing. He hasn't paid any of the bills, we are already without water, and the lights are due to be turned off this week! Rent has not been paid neither has the car or the furniture!!!!!!!!
 How could he just walk out and leave us like this? It just doesn't make sense, he could have at least helped me to get things caught up, and told me he was leaving!!!!!!
What do I do now? How do I take care of everything that he left undone?
 He'll be back, I know that , he will have some fantastic excuse for all of this!! He always does, and it always puts the blame for everything on me, and I always fall for it!!! How could this possibly be my fault? I'mnot the one cheating, lieing, and saying the terrible things he says to us! so, how can he blame me? Am I doing something so wrong that I really desearve this? I just don't get it!!!!!!