It's been a couple of days since I last been here. I have been trying to deal with alot of my feelings without writing them out. Didnt work!!!!!!!!!!! lol......I need to vent, it makes me feel so much better than keeping all of my feelings to myself. My husband and I are still living together. We still have about 45 days until we get stationed in Arizona "TOGETHER", but living in seperate households. Thinking about this, really drains me out. I keep thinking about us going our own separate ways, and him dating "The other woman" That is all I can think about at times. I guess I think about it because he has mentioned to me that if me and him didnt work out, he would more than likely try to be with her, because,(get this) there was already a connection formed, and because she understands everything that is going on. It just makes me feel like he has  no respect for me, you know how much you hurt me, and what you put me through, why for the life of you would you want to continueputting me through that pain? Am I wrong for feeling this way. I dont think so!!!! I feel he is only thinking of him self. Why wouldn't you move to Arizona, move on from the divorce, to someone new. Why try to continue on this relationship with someone 32 hours away, and someone you got caught cheating with on your wife. To me that's not showing any respect for the mother of your child despite how you feel about her. I need RESPECT. If he does this to me, I will finally realize thsi person not only doesnt respect me, he also never really cared about my feelings. My feelings havent really been a factor to him for quite some time obviously. I just cant get my mind on anything else besides that.