Out of the Ashes 

Sitting here looking around the room that I grew up in.. The room that I couldn't wait to get out of...  The room that I had never thought or dreamt about ever returning to, I'm back here.  But you know... it's okay...  I know everything is happening for a reason.. I'm becoming a better person, and I am going to be a heck of a lot stronger because of this...  Yes I have anger, and yes I have lots of regrets.. but you know.. I did this, and I am going to change my future..  I am not going to sit back and take more abuse, and more of anything..  I dont care that he came home and told me that marrying me was the biggest mistake of his life.  I dont care.. He's hurt me so much, but it's okay!  I am a better person because of everything..   Yes I will always love him... I did promise to love him forever, but you know.. I am not in love with him anymore.. He has hurt me, abandoned me, and treated me like i was nothing when I needed him the most.  I don't need that.. I deserve more... I know this now!!  How long has this taken me?  But I'm glad that I have...  I'm glad that i've been able to finally see the light at the end of the tunnel!!!  I'm glad that I don't have to live in pitty and wallow in my sadness...  I just wish that I could have seen this before!!!  I just hope that I dont worry about everything, and just continue on the path that I am!  I am strong and couragous..  I am who I am...  I'm finding my wings finally, after months of not even thinking i could walk.. I'm growing my wings, and going to learn how to fly.. I'm coming out of the ashes!!  =)