Missing... 

So I know that I have been MIA for a while now..  I've been around, just trying to hide from everything..  I know that all of this has turned my life upside down and I just wanted to escape from everything.  I wanted to pretend that none of this existed, and that this really isn't what my life is coming to.  But instead, reality has just been following me around and finding me wherever I tried to hide, and smacking me square in the face!  I can't hide anymore, and I can't keep putting everything off anymore.   I now have to face my fears, and realize that I will be okay.. 

So since last time, the other half, wont leave me alone..  He wont stop calling me, sending me txts, calling my friends and even my family, telling everyone to have me go back to him, and that he misses me and that i need to go back to him.  He's said that he's made mistakes, but he needs to change them..  But i honestly can't go back to that.  Hes telling me that we cant get a divorce..  but you know.. I can't go back to him at all.. I can't go back to the way that he made me feel, and I can't go back to a volitile situation and risk what may happen next.  

So i've taken the first step!  I have a meeting with a lawyer next week, and we're going to set up everything and get everything in order!  I'm going to do this for myself, and stand up for myslef and do what i have to in order to be okay!!  Now I just have to go through everything, and hang in there!