Got served with the dreaded papers Thursday 

    On Thursday she made the decision for me and filed the dreaded divorce papers on me. She wants the house. What nerve. if you've read any of my other entries, this is a house that I brought into the marriage. I owned it 11 years prior to us meeting. That is going to be the only thing that I am going to contest. I picked up a temporary order for maintenance which I petitioned the court to grant me possession of the house and for her to vacate.There is another complication in all of this. There is a no contact order in effect against me from an incident that happened in 2007. We were in a heated argument. There was alot of name calling. she called the police like she likes to do when things don't go her way. she will call the police at the drop of a hat.These days in WA State, when ever the cops are called, someone is going away. I was charged with D.V. 4th degree. At the time I made too much money to get a public defender, but there was no way I could afford a private attorney so I pled guilty just to get out of jail. A no contact order is issued automatically to any one in a D.V. case. How am I suppose to be in the same court room as her?
    I'm finding out from fa friend why she wants a divorce. She is Not happy with my past even though she knew everything about me because we cohabitated for three years before we got married and I kept no secrets from her. She is a real goodie goodie and I' a bad boy. the worst thing that she's ever done is gotten a couple of speeding tickets. Me on the other hand was arrested for shoplifting & DUI, received a bad conduct discharge from the Marine Corps in 1988 and since I met her D.V. I had a credit problem but have since rebuilt my credit. my score is 650. Higher than hers. She has never bounced a check. I have several times.  That is all in the past before I met her. I'm not a bad guy, I just made some stupid choices. I am a kind, caring compassionate and sensitive man. I didn't say that I make smart choices.
    The biggest problem she has with me is my inability to  keep away from beer. I promised her that I would stop drinking, and I did for over a year. I was in counseling and was going to A.A. but The whole A.A. thing got old real fast and I stopped going. I thought that I could control my drinking now and started to have a couple before she got home from work every now and again. Only 2 maybe 3 beers once or twice a week. I know it was wrong because I promised her I wouldn't, but I like beer. I was about 3 months away from completing my out patient treatment when she quit her job and lost the insurance that was paying for it and we could'nt afford the $250/ week fee to continue.I am however attending an A.A. alternative group again. I've actually done real good through all this pain and have for the most pat refrained from self medication. The two times I tried it , I felt even worse I don't know if I will ever give up my demon beer entirely. But at least I'm not binge drinking to the point of blackout like I have in the past. And yes I do feel bad for breaking promisesHello, my name is Mike and I'm an alcholic. I'm so sorry for everything Bonnie