Ventage>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 

Today another dead day........ I left this morning to get a little pampering and have been gone all day. I couldnt stand to stay in this apartment another second with him here. It feels lifeless in here, so cold, no love. I can't take it. He makes me feel like I am at complete fault, for everything! Gosh, its killing me. The love I used to see in his eyes is replaced with hatred. he claims he doesnt, but the way he treats me and talks to me sometimes.........tells me different. He hasnt touched me in weeks, I mean we have been intimate, but it's empty and feels like more of a conveince.No foreplay, touching, kissing or anything. I dont know what to do any longer. I have so much faith and hope that things will turn around, but i dont have much time left. We leave for Arizona in July and he has already made it clear, that he isnt living with me.......Wow at one point of time, he couldnt live without me. It's something how much time and another woman can change a man's heart! I never thought that my husband would fall victim to that ever!