5/12/08 

My wife and I were unable to get time to discuss last night so hopefully tonight.  Today I am feeling alot of angst and really not sure why.  I slept well so I am not over tired.  It must just be the limbo I am feeling.  I don't have any anger just sadness and hurt right now.  I know those are the right feelings for this time and they are subsiding.  However I'd like to feel some joy more often.

A couple buddies are coming down hopefully for Memorial weekend.  That should help lift the spirits and give me something to focus on in the future.  I think in June I may make a trip to the wine country if I can find someone to go with.  Wine tasting alone is not great fun, but with people its always a blast.

My son looked very drained after his weekend.  I hope it was that he was having too much fun with his buddies and not being down from the situation.  I'll get some time with him tonight just to talk.