What do you do when your wife and best friend kicks you out of the house and won't even speak to you?I am having a real tough time coping with this whole mess. She is blaming all of our problems on me and not accepting responsability for her roll in our dilema. I want so badly to make things work. I need help with dealing with this mess. I need to find a local support group. The only family I have is my brother, but he is more of an antagonizer than a help. This is the guy who, before my wife and I got married, suggested that I let him sleep with my then fiancee to try to help us get through an arguement that we were having. That is his idea of helping. The thought of infidelity makes my stomach churn, and when your brother suggests something like that is unforgiveable. he does'nt see the wrong in that.

My wife is my very best friend. She is all I have in the world. we don't have many friends in the area, But we always had each other. We pretty much did everything together. Now I, out on my own feeling so isolated and abandoned, Which I should'nt because I lived on my own for 18 years before we married. But since we met she has been my constant companion. The only time we were apart was when we were at work.Since she kicked me out with only a few personal items, all I really Have is my computer to keep me occupied. Money is real tight becuase I had to stay in hotels for the past 3 weeks while trying to pick up a few necessities here and there.

I miss her so much. I'm usually a stong man, but I have been reduced to a wimpering  and weak little boy. I never thought that I would ever experience this much pain, especially when its from someone you love.I am not as materialistic as she is. She can keep the house that I bought and paid for without her help (its in my name) and everything in it. thats all replaceable, But my undying love for her isn't. I just want to talk to her. I want for her to vent her frustrations to that we can try to rebuild our marriage.

The day we got married was the happiest day of my life. When I saw her in her wedding dress, I cried. I could hardly say my vows because I was so choked up and emotional. These past few miserable days I'm crying for all together different reasons. Today I drove by the house and saw her outside playing with my dog. I wanted to stop but did'nt because I think that right now she needs some time and space. I can only hope that if and when she is ready to talk that she'll call. tomorrow will be especially difficult because it's her birhtday. Happy Birthday Bonnie.