more wierdness....
I love the making the bad list idea!! because here is what is happening....My husband is cleaning up all his junk. Outside, stuff that has layed around for years in the lawn, that could be put in the garage and I refused to do it for him because I am not his mother. Our house is actually starting to look nice outside. And he continues to kiss my ass, on week #3 of that. But I still feel like I don't want to be with him forever anymore. I feel like he will go back to his old habits of wanting me around all the time, not liking my friends, and leaving his junk everywhere ( just to name a few). I don't have that trust in him anymore. But I also have some wierd other things going on. I don't trust any guys. I have 3 good guy friends. And I can't seem to trust them either. They are not as close as my good girlfriends, but I know they would do anything for me. But when they say so I just can't seem to believe them. For instance girlfriends and guy freinds are all getting together at one of our houses to BBQ. ( Husband is no longer even invited becasue he has refused so many times and told me many times he doesn't like or care to hang out with my friends) I know the girls friends will be there. But I have to double check with the guy friends. I am wondering if this is going to be something I wll quit doing someday. I mean who cares if they don't come? So after 18 years or so of being together with a guy who forgets things ( like my class reunion even though I reminded him in the morning...) and dislikes and diapproves of my friends, is it going to be hard to trust males again that they won't always do this??? Who knows.
