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Every little thing makes me tear up 

I can be watching a tv show (even a sitcom) and the character will be telling their significant other why something they did bothered/hurt them and I start tearing up.  They're not even real!  And don't even get me started on those commercials that are meant to pull your heartstrings.  Starving children and abused animals always affected me anyway but now it is especially hard.  I can't wait until I stop feeling like a walking vulnerable open wound. 

And the thing is, I feel like I've been dealing with my feelings okay.  I allow myself some healthy wallowing but am careful to put a time limit on it so I don't go someplace I can't return.  It's not healthy to always be depressed but I think you need to release it sometimes.  And I know what things help me feel better.  Not get rid of the pain but at least help me through it or take my mind temporarily off it.  

But I feel so vulnerable all the time and wish I could find a quick fix.  I have never been a patient person and this greiving process thing just seems too slow.  I want to be over it and I want to be over it now!! 


by Emeraldsky    
Posted on 4/27/2008 9:29 PM
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I wish sometimes I could wave a magic wand and speed up the healing process. I'm tired of being at work or with friends and having to worry that something will make me tear up where I need to turn away and look busy somewhere else.  People think I'm handling it very well but they really have no idea how hard it really is.  I don't want anyone's pity, I just want to be normal agian!  It is very much like a death.   It sucks!

(I briefly turned the tv on tonight and one of those crime shows were on and that made me cry.  When you think about it they are depressing but they never used to affect me that way.  Oh, to be normal again.)
by Emeraldsky  147 Posts
Posted on 4/27/2008 10:42 PM
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Well, I'm a man and I never tear up but there have been many times that I have seen things or, like you said, watched thinks on TV that have made my eyeballs sweat. I guess the difference for me is that I have been doing this for a very long time. It has been so much worse lately though. I've never been a very emotional person but recently it just comes pouring out. For me it is a longing for things I've been missing for a very long time. Why it is worse now I have no idea because for the first time in years I actually have hope for the future. I guess I've just been missing things lately.
by RichBrewer  77 Posts
Posted on 4/27/2008 10:15 PM
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hi em, i feel the same way.  i haven't had the tv on in weeks for that same reason.  in the beginning, i would just blurt out my story to anybody that would listen, and just start balling.  work was terrible, i'd be right in the middle of a project, and have to run outside to my car to have a cry.  i just keep thinking, someday this will be a memory - i'll be seeing it from a rear-view mirror far into the future and then meditate 'make it smaller', sometimes it helps.  for me, the worst is when something comes up like a story on the radio, or a decision to be made and realize, i simply don't have him as a friend or confidante any more to talk to about it, i guess i have to just call another friend, or decide on my own; it's a lot like a death
by 6108  30 Posts
Posted on 4/27/2008 9:51 PM
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