WHere i am at this point? 

Its been 4 months since he left. when that happened i felt so hurt and yet i was a bit relieved. I was miserable and it was so hard to accept what was turning into my life. Everyones true colors really showed as this life changing event in my life but I was the one with the same support I have always had with my family. As much as I have seen family members so happy to see us split in turn it would assure me of the best move in my entire life. Now being a single mom that barely receives financial assistence nor have an ex to take his children, has to deal with the major responsibility every single day. I love my boys and the more I do for myself the better of a mom I am. Even the arguing between my ex and I have died down because I am not reacting to his fighting words to make me upset and feel bad like he always did. I am young and I get a new start and I am happy to know that I don't have to deal something just taking from me or lying to myself.