can't stop looking...my story 

I am really having a hard time dealing with this separation. I know that it's not of God because if God really wanted me gone out of my husband's life, I've had plenty of times when I could have been removed already. You see, I was in a coma 2 year ago today. When I came out of it 3 months later, I lost my short term memory. I didn't recognize my husband and children. I've spent the last two years trying to get better. With God's grace slowly but surely I am getting better. My husband had a hard time believing I couldn't remember him and mt doctors have advised him to get counselling because they believe that he is suffering from PTSD due to my illness. So, when read his letter telling about the divorce, I was shocked. I may not remember the past but something in me is screaming "this is wrong." On top of that, we're both strong Christians or so I thought. We do not believe in divorce as it is in the Bible. I am very confused and hurt and I don't know how to take this situation in the scripture that will allow me to move forward. Should I get over the infidelity in order to be the better person for the glory of God despite the pain I'm in and the urge to react humanly? I am a fairly attractive woman who looks a decade younger than my age despite all my illness. As a matter of fact, unless you know my medical history and looked under my clothes,you wouldn't think that I have a chronic illness. In knowing that I still attract attention of the opposite sex, I just want to lash out so bad, I know it's wrong but then again so is what my husband is doing.