Adventuersome & Brave or just plain fool-hardy? 

Well - I made a big decision last night.  After my uneasiness with coming back "home" after a business trip - I thought why not make the leap and find a new place to live.  I travel so many places with work - last weekend (& this one coming up ) to the Bay Area, the following weekend to the DFW area, then to Bay Area again, on to Fairfax VA, next Houston --- all  by the middle of May.  I am self-employed and can "do" my job anywhere.  So - why not try a different slice of the world? 
I love the thought of not having to worry if I round the corner there he will be and worse yet - the he will be with the she.  UGH!
 
So I started to think about how at peace I felt while I was away and the dread I felt in returning and suddenly thought --- you know life is SHORT!  I am still (relatively) young and can do what I want.  He's NOT the boss of me!  I know he will be stunned if I do this and be unhappy that our son will come with me.  (He is almost 18 and has Asperger's Syndrome - he needs someone with him).  Isaiah will fly back & forth to be with Ken on his weekends off.
Now I just have to figure out exactly HOW I am going to do this.  I think that is part of the fun of it.  To see IF I can pull it off. 
But just the planning of it makes me feel hopeful and strong.  Suddenly I'm the "decider" and he gets to deal with it.  I would think it would come as such a relief to have me out of the city, let alone county and state. 
So - now is an interesting time to see what is "there".  I have been "here" for a long time.  Even though we lived all over the US - the "here" for me was always the "us".  That was all I ever needed to have "home".  Now I will build a new one - the way I want it.  But it does give me a sense of peace.  Even my therapist thought it was a good idea.  She said that my whole body relaxed as I talked about it and my inflection was so hopeful.  I figure if I am too old to try out for the Ice Capades - then why not do this.?