One of the biggest ailments to my heart in this situation was finding out that after she threw me out that she began dating another man, within a matter of a week.  So, it lead me to suspect what was really going on until I found out that one of her best friends, pretty much the only one I trusted actually hooked her up with him.  I felt so betrayed, because I  had trusted her A. to come to me with problems and face them together, and B. To not cheat on me with someone else.

All in all, it didn't stop her whatsoever.  It appears that she hasn't had respect for me for a long time.  I take a look back throughout our relationship and marriage and there have been many questionable times and questionable behavior she exhibited that should have warned me for what was to come.

Now that we are separated, I am trying to find my way in life again.  I want to remove her completely from my life, so I have decided to cut off all communication with her until the day we finalize our divorce.  The only problem is that I don't have the will power to keep it up or she ends up contacting me several days later for whatever reason.  What really burns me up about the situation is the fact that ignores me when she is with her new boyfriend and doesn't respond to me when I text her either.  Why am I playing myself for this broad who clearly hasn't had any respect for me in a long time and is still treating me like this when we are still legally married.  I need to get this into my head that I am doing nothing but re-opening the wound everytime I talk to her.  I need to tell her that I do not wish to contact her anymore and that I do not wish for her to contact me anymore either.  I love how she makes me feel guilty when I have told her this in the past.  I need to stop being a coward and tell her that she isn't worth my time or effort as a wife or even as a friend anymore.  She is living her life without regard for others, why waste my time for a loser who still works in pool hall as a waitress.  She has a 6 year old daughter that she can't even care for, how did I ever expect that she would have the capacity for a marriage?  I guess that's the learning experience.  You live and you learn.  She has been dogging me out for too long now, it's time I remove her from my life.