Hey slow down....it is gonna be ok.  Look honey the first couple of months are real hard....you will want to lay down and die i know been there...i was married for five years to a man who was from africa a man 10 years my senior....it was hell!!!!!!!  but i hung in there for the sake of my kids....but every single day he mentally abussed me over and over to the point i started having panic attacks everytime he came home from work....but i still loved him...dumb right?  yes i know,  but one day he called me from africa and told me congradulations on my new son....i said WHAT?  he had another wife back home and had another baby(even though he wouldnt allow me to have any after our son)....i almost died...i lost 30 lbs and was every kind of medication known to man....then he came home...honestly i tried to kill him one night...i put him through our glass top table after he called me a "B"  i knew then it was time to go....he too used to tell me that i was the biggest mistake he had ever made and how worthless i was and all kinds of crap....but guess what i made it....i have so much now...we have been seperated since nov.07 and i have my own house my own car even a dog...what does he have?  nothing but what he cae here with....your gonna hurt...you will and your gonna cry but its ok thats normal....my mother always told me that people are brought into our lives for one of three reasons....season...reason or a lifetime...which was he....better things will come your way just hold your head up high....and don't worry karma has a way of getting those who do rong back ....i wish i could show you a befor and after picture of my husband...lol...if u need to talk or wanna chat u can reach me at brebremae23@yahoo.com

I completely understand how you are feeling. I have been divorced now for about a week, and I think my ex set a record with getting it (he filed), because the marriage was all over exactly 60 days from the day he filed. It makes me feel crazy to think I spent 4 years with a man, and this is the end product of work, sacrifice, acceptance, and love. Having your life taken away by someone that yo