i just want to tell you guys just how great this is to come to this site every so often when stuff just gets so badd and i feel like screaming and pulling my hair out. I have a primary care physician and i am having the hardest time getting a referral to see a therapist for myself and my husband and i know that nothing will work if i don't get this . I know that he and I cannot work out by ignoring the issue and skirting it like it does not exist plus i have my own stuff that needs to be addressed. I mean the whole situation is the elephant in the room and no one talks about it like it never happened, and i am so unhappy. so very unhappy. i wnt to cry at odd times, i lose myself in trashy reality tv , i am an absent mom and don't want to go to work and i don't have anyone to talk to . Everyone is like oh well my husband cheated , my friend's husband cheated . everyone does it get over it . but to me it is not that easy I have been hurt before by boyfriends never did I think I would be here with my husband.. Never would I think this would be my life . My hair is falling out I am eating a pint of haagen dazs reserve fleur de les everyday at one sitting . Like my whole life sucks and I cannot see the good, or the better or make plans or function in the way that I should well anyway .. thanks for listening this is the only safe place where I can say what I want how i want and someone somewhere understands