As much I try to want to write down my thoughts in the early morning as the alarm clock is terrorizing my slumber....I find it really difficult to get this done. I have been dreaming a lot more recently and trying to create a dream journal. But either the promise of 5 more minutes of sleep or the call of nature or pending "shit, I am up late!!!" all seem to get in the way of this goal.

I keep having dreams of what feels like a movie is going on. And I am not any of the actors or characters...perhaps the director? But it feels like I am on set and an integral part to the story or events that are going on. Last night...the part that I can remember....there was this woman who was some type of therapist or counselor or social worker or something. She was working with this young tortured woman...a model or actress or something that had gotten pregnant accidentally. Young, but still an adult and this tortured woman also had a drug addiction and severe mental issues. Somehow the father of this woman's child ends up coming out...he is some big name person in the public. But not an actor...some type of professional sports person. Skiing or Olympic training or snowboarding...something in the cold. He's good-looking and in his early 30's. He's been known for being a bit irresponsible and at times a womanizer. So, he has some type of life-changing event happen. Gets into a near-death accident or something...I'm not clear on this. And he comes forward to this woman he has supposedly gotten pregnant to help. But not just by throwing money at her. He visits the home, the home of this main character/counselor woman, where she is staying and getting treatment and help. He is there for her as she is really sick during her pregnancy and together he and the main character care for her trying to get her weight up (also battled eating disorder?) and talking her down through her manic episodes. The main character's house was out in the middle of nowhere in some snow-filled mountainous area. Over the months the main character and this man start to develop feelings for each other and lots of talks about his past and past behaviors…why he has done what he has done, etc. Nothing really happens between them other than a few gentle touches here and there but they are both aware of the deeper connections. The main character is not as alluring as his other endeavors. She is a simple plainer woman but he is aware his heart is really full of love for her. Fast forward somehow the girl has given birth and either ran off and is no where to be found or dead. Wasn’t able to really focus on details here. The man immediately steps in for the child to be there for him. They do a paternity test…the baby is not his. He goes kind of crazy and gets into a fight with the main character. They go in separate ways and baby is given to girl’s immediate family for care. Fast forward a few months later and the man shows up on main character’s front porch, still lots of snow on the ground, with the baby in his arms. She is shocked and he tells her that basically he is going to raise the baby and he also realized he is in love with her. She is shocked and yadda yadda…happy ending.

Now, this might be just my brain coming up with an interesting idea for a novel or screenplay. Or maybe more. Just trying to keep a better journal of my dreams. Your thoughts, comments, and feedback are appreciated. :O)