I am still staying at my friends place.  It's been great, for two weeks.  She will be back this Saturday, so my use of the internet 24/7 will come to an end.  I am going to miss reading and writing on this site when ever I wanted.  I have to say, just the little bit I have been on here, I feel a little bit better.  With all the problems and concerns we all have, some of you have a knack for writing.  It's just the way you put things, funny, cute, serious and most of all from the heart, it's nice. 
      Bad afternoon though.  I left my doctor a message my medication is really screwed up still.  I have to eat certain foods, and can NOT eat certain foods with my medications.  Due to the lack of food in went into reactions, it was horrible. I left the number where I am staying.  I had enough gas to get to my attorneys and back, from my friend. When I got back here, the police were calling.  Crap, my doctor called, coulnd't find me, so called the police to check on me.  How embarassing, they were over at MY house.  I must have sounded very bad, I will watch my wording from now on.  Maybe a nurse or someone who didn't actually know me got the message and jumped the gun a lil, rrrrrrr rrrr.   Anyway's I'm fine, I just need an adjustment on meds.  Maybe it's a good thing though.  My attorney actually called the judge for an emergency hearing on Monday Morning.  I have to admit though, for some reason I am really scared.  I don't know why.  I think ???  It's seeing my husband in court.  It always freaks me out.  It's just to much for me.  I still love him so much, and to see him in court, talking bad about me, just freaks me out.  Dosen't he see this?  Get, this - he still lives in our home.  Yep, my daughter coulnd't take it and more.  Her step-dad, her hero !! betrayed her.  She moved out, and my husband moved in her room in the basement.  I don't know, he say's, his attorney told him NOT to ever move out.  I don't know why, it's silly.  I won't move out either, I have NO where to go.  And, my son also lives with us.  Tension is high, when we actually cross paths in the house.  But, my husband is hardly EVER there.  He goes to work, comes home, and is GONE with in 15 min.  He does not return until 12:30 AM Every night.  His days off he just leaves for 3 days, EVERY WEEK for more than a year now.  I have no idea where my husband is, even if there is an emergency.  I received a phone call today that he and his girlfriend (my daughters x-friend), 31+ yrs younger than himself our now out of the closet.  They have been seen everywhere.  He sits at her work, while he is supposed to be working.  We have seen them sitting her vehicle 1:00 AM in the morning.  Love messages etc etc.... she is now 21 yrs old.  If anyone actually spent the time to read all this garbage tell me something???  Would you want to know if your 21 yr old daughter, you are paying for a private college for. Has been lying to you for the past 1 1/2 years about what and where she actually is, and she still lives under your roof.  Would you want to know if she was in a sexual relationship with her best friends married father ????  If so, what kind of proof would you want.  They are really nice people, and think she is a goodie goodie.  It makes me sick !!!  She actually said to me, "Well at least I can satisfy YOUR husband". " There is something wrong with you, you can't even keep a husband".    I think my husband even knew she said these horrible things to me, and did nothing !!!  He even drives to her school daily, and sits and waits for her to get out of class.  Everyone thought it was her dad until they started making out, just outside the school.  The other students think she is really gross.  Well, at least that's what they tell me.  I want her parents to know sooooo bad.  I am so sick of all her lies, to her parents, all the lies she used to tell me.  How she used my daughter, and swore up and down for MONTHS that nothing was going on.  Then my daughter caught them, Again.  And, of course kids at her school that know her, and know my husband were shocked !  They took pictures of them with there cell phones, while they sat in the lil cafe at her school having coffee.  I feel so bad for my daughter.  He has absolutley no idea, just how much he hurt her.  I have tried to explain it to him.  He just looks at me, like I am crazy.  All he has to say is "She's an adult now...She dosen't care about me, I have not hurt the kids."  How can someone so wonderful and was SO protective over us, in every manner, do a complete 180` ??
Well, enough rambling with thoughts for tonight.  I think I will phrase the one question above for a poll though.  This would be interesting to me, to see what the community thinks of what I call a moral dilemma.  And, as for my husband.  If his uncle ever found out, just how he really treats his family, he would be devistated.  My husband would be so embarassed.  So, right there I know, he knows, he is being premeditated hateful.  Sad, so very very sad. ~ S ~