Well, another thing that just happens to SUCK bad about not having a prelim. agreement yet is that my birthday was 12/13 and I saw my daughter at the daycare (that my soon to be EX works at) for an hour.  That was obviously the best part of my day... However the part that ripped my still beating heart from my chest and slowly tortured it until cessation, was when I was about to leave, and (at only 18 months old) was begging me in the only way she could to take her with me.  See I didn't have my carseat with me. My ex's best friend has had it for 3 weeks until yesterday evening (too late because I work midnights.)  So my ex had a smirky grin on her face when she said "You don't have a car seat so you can't take her, plus I don't have to give her to you because my lawyer said not to."  So that will probably be a birthday for the record books falling under the category of "Worst to Date".
     Not to mention my atorney didn't get back with me yesterday either.  So I've been teetering between depression, anger, pity (because she dosen't realize what she's doing to herself or my daughter), hate, and trying to forgive but still be firm about not getting railroaded.  I'm know I'm not the only one, but that dosen't stop the fact that it feels that way.  I worry about who she'll date (not for her but my daughter) if they'll mistreat or molest her.  I worry about all kinds of things...  Now my ex found out I have been talking to a friend from highschool who's been in a similar situation, and now she insists that I'm dating the woman.  It's rediculous, I mean are we still in Highschool? 
I'm turning into a basket case! I just want all this to work out and be over!!!