So for a while, I have been wanting to get in touch with my high school boyfriend. I was going to a year and a half ago, but then I got into a relationship and didn't follow through. But, as many of you know, that ended and I was devastated.
So for a few days last week, I kind of fantasized about getting in touch with this boyfriend from 25 years ago and that he would still be single and we would reunite and, well, you all know how that story goes!
So on Friday I did it and e-mailed him. I knew it was him because I knew what profession he had gone into and where he was living from mutual friends.
I sent a really simple note. Something to the effect of - hi from your distant past, would love to hear about you if you feel like e-mailing me back.
And so the fantasies kept up all weekend. What if the boy I met in high school turns out to be the guy I was supposed to be with all along? I remembered how sweet and simple he was. How tall and good looking he was. I remembered how we never actually "did it" and how now that we were adults, we could. I remembered how much fun the things we did do were. I couldn't remember the reasons I broke up with him back then.
So finally today I got an e-mail back. I hesitated before opening it when I saw his name. I hadn't behaved so well those many years ago. He had sent me a very thoughtful and kind letter when I was in college and I had never responded. I wasn't sure that my e-mail had been welcome.
I finally opened it and yes, he was happy to hear from me, but he didn't have time to respond right now as he was heading out of town with his fiance (can you believe it? I'm getting married in May 2009!) Yes, I can believe it. And it turned out, the fantasies went by the way side, I was happy just to hear back from him and I congratulated him and really meant it.
So fantasy gone, but hopefully a piece of my past recovered.