So the digital device that I've been lusting over for a few months now arrived today.
I've been wanting an iPod Touch ever since they first came out. But did I really need an iPod Touch?
I thought so - but I made a list of reasons why I could buy one now, just to reassure myself:
- It's not so much about the music as it is about needing an electronic calendar and contacts organizer.
- But it's also true that my old iPod was well-loved, yet is on its last legs
- I had some extra money, thanks to an unexpected tax refund from the state. I also had holiday money from my mom and two Amazon gift certificates to throw into the Touch fund. So it's not that much of a splurge if you look at it that way...
- No one bought me a birthday gift this last year. And no one's buying me holiday gifts this year (let's just conveniently overlook the fact that I'm not necessarily gifting others, shall we?)
- And finally - I deserve it. I consistently put other people's needs ahead of my own, scramble to make ends meet, and regularly play the role of martyr.
So I ordered myself an iPod Touch last week. Tracked the Amazon delivery schedule like a fiend. Opened it, got it up and running, and promptly fell in love, as expected.
But now? I can't stop thinking about just how much it cost, and what I could have done with the money instead. I could have bought a portable dishwasher, for example - and we could really
use a portable dishwasher. I could have put it into savings and created a bit more of a cushion. I could have paid a bill or two. And my daughter could use some new shoes, while the teenager will probably grow out of his new jeans next month.
I still love it. I definitely can use it. But will I always feel vaguely guilty and slightly regretful every time I look at it?
I hope not...