Things are somewhat civil, but I don't know if I can trust that or not. 

     Over the past two days my soon to be ex and I have discussed things in a civil mannor and for the most part we're comming to an agreement on monitary and property issues.  I've actually gotten to see my daughter for a few hours since sunday.  I'm just trying to enjoy all the time I have with her.  Since she's so young she dosen't understand things, but she knows somethings going on. The first thing she did when she woke up this morning was ask for me (both verbally and in sign language).  She never used to do that.  When she sees me she gets SO excited.  Don't get me wrong this has to happen, but this is excruciating for me (concerning my daughter).  I don't wish any harm to my ex, but at the same time she (in her own pain and vindiction) is using my daughter to hurt me.  I'm sure that this will continue for a while, and maybe for a long time.  Just because I don't want to be with my wife anymore dosen't mean I don't want to be a good daddy.  She's my FIRST priority.  I have a lot to talk to my lawyer about.  I'd like it to be quick and as painless as possible. I don't know if that's possible though.