Today is another day 

Today is another day.  I am feeling good today.  I got absolutely NO sleep last night because I stayed awake all night hoping he would call me... how pathetic is that?  I got over it, though.  When I got out of bed this morning I realized that I cannot control him and what he does.  I am only in control of my own life and I'm not going to pine away for him and wait for him to come back to me.
There's something empowering in the thought that I now have complete control of my own life and my finances.  There's something empowering in the thought that I don't need to discuss it with anyone before making a major decision.  I can just do it.  I know that I am in complete control of everything I do, and that's empowering.  I can let him get to me, or I can just live my life and let him do what he's going to do.  I choose to live my life without worrying about what he's going to do next.  I have my friends and my family, which is more than he's left himself.  His family is all he's got, and even they are befuddled by his behavior.  He has isolated himself from all of our friends by the way he did this to me, and he has isolated himself from my family.  If we do reconcile, I feel sorry for him.  He's got a LOT of 'splainin' to do before my family will accept him back with open arms.  You don't just tell someone out of the blue a week before Thanksgiving that you want a divorce.  You give hints or warnings that something is wrong before you drop a bomb like that.  You don't just pretend everything is fine and continue to tell someone you love them and pretend to care about that someone all the while planning to divorce them.  What he did was WRONG and how he did it was WRONG... can you believe he took me out to dinner before he told me?  I thought it was a date night!  Boy was I a schmuck.  I feel so stupid that I didn't know this whole time.  He told his family, he told mutual friends, even our kids knew before I did!  But I digress... my anger is taking over... this is about me getting over what he did.  This is about me taking control of my life and my feelings.  I can let the anger get to me, or I can ride it out and hope that I can eventually forgive him for the way he treated me.  Life goes on.  It really does.