My nightmare update 

Well his girlfriend has already moved to her new house.  He is going to "supposedly" wait until after the divorce to move in with her.  Yeah right!  I know him better than that.  We have been trying to keep it somewhat civil, but the other night I just couldn't stand it any longer.  I brought home boxes and packed up everything else that he had in the house.  That didn't bother me.  Then I got to the pictures, especially our wedding pictures.  That's when I lost it.  All of those good memories of the last 10 years and the love that I had for him.  So I called him and told him to come and get his crap and I was not very nice about it.  I couldn't stop myself, I kept calling him and yelling and saying mean hurtful things to him.  He finally asked why I was acting that way.  I told him it was because I was pissed and that I had a right to be.  He agreed with me and told me that he was sorry and that he knew that I was just venting so he wasn't taking any of it seriously.  Everytime he told me he was sorry I woudl respond with " yes I know you are!".   I told him how disrespectful he was to even look for his highschool sweetheart while we were still legally married.  I told him that I didn't care that he did it, but that he should have waited until after the divorce.  Which we are supposed to be going to file next week.  He's giving me the money to do it, and letting me do it however I want.  Supposedly.  We'll see when the time actually comes.  The part that is so hard, is that I was SO easy to "get over" and that he has already shacked up with someone else.  And we have only been seperated for 3 months.  He never even tried to work on our marriage.  I know something better is coming my way and that I do deserve better.  But the thing that pisses me off, is that he gets to go on with his life, and his new love and be happy.  While I'm stuck in the same house, in my same life, doing my same day to day things, and crying and not happy at all.  I am the one that deserves to be happy.  NOT HIM!!!!  Anyway, that's my rant for the week.  I'll keep you all posted as things progress.