so it's another day with eharmony and i now have 54 matches and 9 closed messages.
i've sent out little icebreakers messages to maybe 10 guys.
nothing yet.
but i started thinking last night about the reality of dating again.
here's my short list of why i'm not ready yet:
1. i still haven't bought a full set of dishes. ex took everything, and i just sort of cobbled together what was left over....elmo cups and batman plates and some mismatched mugs. how could i offer someone a drink without proper stemware? right now my one guest, my new neighbor, doesn't seem to mind the plastic neon color cups i use to offer him too strong lemonade. which leads me to:
2. i can't cook. it's not just that i'm bad at it, i really have zero interest in learning. i admire people who can (and love to) cook, but i'm just not one of them. what would i serve someone to eat if they came to my house pre or post date? if you walked in my house right now, i would hand you a pink neon plastic cup and a paper plate covered with sponge bob square pants cheese nips. which leads to:
3. i have kids. 2 of them. i'm not a great parent (read: i'm one of those parents who adopt a new parenting style weekly....so this week i believe we are on chore lists, with check marks and being sent to your room if you don't make your bed). this will be gone by next week. i have zero follow through. therefore, my kids ignore me, run the house and basically leave toys and messes everywhere they go. what man is going to find that appealing? which leads to:
4. i have scars. now i know there is that joke that women find scars on men sexy. but i don't think i'm reaching here when i say that men simply do not find scars on woman sexy. and mine are c-section scars no less. while some of you may say....'so? that's natural' (which, it kind of really isn't)....it's just so intimate and personal and screams 'hey, this woman has children by someone else...lookee there....she's been branded). what man is going to notice those scars and think to himself....'sexy'?
so, that's the short list.