does this damn loneliness overtake me? The past 2 days have been hell! I thought I was finally over feeling like this but no! It came back with a vengeance today. Part of the problem is that I'm exhausted from not sleeping and I just don't feel like doing anything. I sit at the computer trying to somehow find a way out of being lonely and I think it just makes it worse. It's been like walking into an empty room for me lately. I think the more exhausted I get the more emotional I become and it just compounds my feelings. I'm just feeling down right awful today. I guess I'll TRY to step away from the computer and find something else to occupy my mind. It sure is hard when anything I can think of DOES NOT hold a candle to what I really want right now. There is literally nothing else I would rather do right now than to be with someone. Even if it were just for coffee or dinner. I've got at least 3 more months before I can even consider dating so I'm just not sure how to get through this right now. I guess it will pass but right now it just plain sucks.
My friend tells me that I wallow like this because it is what I want to do. That couldn't be further from the truth. I'm just flat sick and tired of this and it hurts like hell! I just want it to go away!