Well I have finally told my husband that I think I'm going through depression. His answer was well you need to just get over it. How nice is that I try and confide in him and thats all he says to me. Well that didn't help me at all. Instead of me crying like I normally would I started to laugh in his face.. He just stood there in complete shock. I wanted to cry till I couldn't cry any more but it came out in an uncontrollable laugh. I think I am so stressed out about the whole thing thats what my body did to break down.
When I cry in front of him he feeds off that. So I have learned that the less crying in front of him I do the better ground I stand on. I know we shouldn't bottle up our emotions, but if thats the only way I have ground to stand on than thats what I have to do.
So to anybody out there that knows about depression can u help?I'm scared that if it is depression and I try to leave(he is the source of it) I don't want him to use it against me. Saying that I can't care for our children, cause if I lose them I know that I will only go deeper into it.