July 26 was the official date of my divorce. Sign, sealed and delivered – I am now officially single in the eyes of my state.
How does it feel? It’s a mixture of emotions:
- There’s relief -- Relief that the chapter of my life with Mr. Ex in it is finally closed.
- There’s elation -- I am so excited about the next phase of my life and this emotional rebirth.
- There’s sadness – Just a twinge, but I’m a little saddened by the unmet potential of my first marriage.
- There’s regret – I should have done this years ago and saved both Mr. Ex and me a lot of heartache.
I’d like to say there’s guilt, but that was all erased yesterday when I called Mr. Ex and heard another woman’s voice on the message machine, saying they couldn’t get to the phone right now. I recognized the voice as someone he’d be “friendly” with while we were married. I have no bitterness about their apparent relationship. I am truly happy for the both of them. And for the fact that neither of them is in my life any longer.
Hurray for me.