It's kind of been a hard few days for me. I'm missing my old life a little bit. I don't necessarily miss my stbx but I miss the family unit. I'm living with my parents right now so I'm missing having my own space too. I just can't afford my own place right now but I should be able to get a place in a few months. Also, I live in a very small town (pop. 1200) so I'm constantly reminded of my former married life. Lots of people only knew me as his wife & I'm constantly having to explain the situation. I so wish I could move away from here. I've never lived anywhere else & want to try something new so bad. But darn it I've got to think of my kids. They need to be somewhat close to their dad & half siblings.
My job really bites right now also. All the friends I had there have quit so I really don't have anyone to talk to. I know it sounds juvenile but when you've got people who make the job fun it makes the work seem easier. I can't afford to quit so I'll just have to put my big girl panties on & deal with it. I just feel so jumbled up right now. My feelings, my life, everything. I know things will get better, it just doesn't feel like it now.