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Saturday-My Thoughts 

I drove into town last night just before sunset. The sun finally made it thru the clouds just in time for a magnificent sunset. I got to look at it for about 8 miles. I'm so glad I live in the boonies. There is one area I drive thru that looks so picturesque. It reminds me of the puzzles of country scenes I used to put together as a teen. The slightly rolling land with houses and barns dotted across the landscape. The huge pond in the background and the fencing so neat and tidy.

 

One farmer was still trying to get hay out of the field. It had been baled that day.  I've helped get hay out of the field and into the barn.

Backbreaking  hot sweaty work. I can get it off the trailer, but I'm not strong enough to stack it in the barn. Me and a 13 year old girl took hay off three trailers one afternoon. We got it to the ground and the guys stacked it in the barn. The guys tried to tell me I couldn't do it. That's all it takes for me. I told them "watch me, you better be able to keep up". The girl didn't want me to out do her efforts and the guys wouldn't dare say slow down to two females. That hay was in the barn in record time.

 

The weather was nice this morning. My helper was here today. He fixed a problem at one of the gates and helped me patch the board Noah (the Tank) laid against and broke. The Tank also caused the problem at the gate. I wish he had the ability to realize what not to do with his 1300 # body and his dinnerplate feet. You don't lay against boards in the fence and you don't stand on the damn gate. I've been around this horse for the last 8 years. He's a pain in the you know what. But he hasn't a mean bone in his body. Just very thick brained.

 

We got a lot done today. I went to the garden and my helper mowed by the road.  I will definitely be eating fried okra by the middle of the week. I would kill for fried okra. I will have fresh string beans tomorrow. Be prepared I will be whining about picking butterbeans in the next couple of weeks. Backbreaking work; but so worth it to eat homegrown butterbeans in the winter. I will have very sore thumbs before I'm done putting those in the freezer.

 

It has rained small showers several times today. The sky would just open up and the rain would come down. The rain felt good against my skin as I continued with my work. You can occassionally see the rain coming across the fields towards the house. I hate it when I see it in the distance and I get no rain.

 

This land called to me when I saw it. There was nothing on here but pines and oaks. You couldn't see the view across it for the trees. But something told me to buy it. My ex thought I had made a mistake until everybody told him different and the Polo people started coming into town and running up the prices. He was just trying to feel superior because he was gone when I bought it. Then when I filed for divorce he tried flattery because he didn't want to lose a long term possession. He said I had a vision he couldn't see when I bought it.  

 

And that's what I was to him. I quit being a wife and became a business manager when he went overseas to work. He knew I wouldn't cheat on our mariage no matter what. He knew me so well and I only knew the person he wanted me to know. A false person who existed only in his mind. He would put on this person when he got home and leave it at the door when he went to work the next morning. I never knew til now what he really was. I didn't know people like that existed. Damn when will I get him out of my head? I have him out of my life.

 

I hear thunder coming in. I could use more rain. But that doesn't mean I will get the rain just because I hear the thunder. I must get off here. I'm on dial-up. Lightning can come thru the phone line. I can't afford a new computer right now and I need to get the wimpy shepherd Max in his pen before it rains.

by trisha9054  2107 Posts 

Posted on 7/26/2008 3:28 PM
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bryant,
Please try to do what we suggested. It had to be bad for you to be so scared and physically ill when you go home.
Thank you for your kind words. Why don't you try writing a blog? They do help to work out some problems.
Stay safe and take care
by trisha9054   2107 Posts
Posted on 7/26/2008 7:22 PM
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I enjoy reading your thoughts they sound like something out of a novel. Keep writting your saturday thoughts kept my mind from wondering about my husband.
by bryant   10 Posts
Posted on 7/26/2008 6:26 PM
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