Today, for some reason, I'm having mixed feelings about my divorce. I'm not changing my mind by any means but I've begun to worry about things. What am I doing to my children? They are all teenagers and I'm afraid they will get screwed up. I know in my heart what I need to do. I need to be a better dad and I need to get even more involved with their lives. I could show them what a healthy, happy relationship is like instead of the unhappy cold one I'm in now.

Will I ever get out of debt? The divorce itself will cost a fortune and I will have a BIG debt load when it's all said and done. I do know though that I will have complete control over the budget so I actually have a better chance of paying off the bills by myself than I would if I stayed married. I'm putting myself on a very strict budget from here on out!

Will I meet the right lady? This is one of the big reasons I'm moving on. I need to be in a loving relationship which I've been missing for a very long time. I'm worried that I will get into a relationship with the wrong woman making my life very unhappy. I'm also worried that I will never find someone. I guess the key here is to take it slow. Make sure I find the right lady before getting too emotionally involved. Hey, I'm not all that happy now so why not at least try to find that special lady? I won't know unless I try.

Well, just typing this out is making me feel better. Now if I can avoid the loneliness tonight I've got it made. I like this approach. Write down my worries and turn them positive by coming up with solutions. I need to remember this next time I'm feeling negative!