I seem bitter to everyone around me... 

Hollyjean- Thank you so much.  I know that since I'm in the situation, it is hard to see the clear way out.  Yesterday and this morning have been very hard for me.  My husband found out that the most recent contract that he has been working on has been cancelled.  That means it will be yet even longer before he will move.  Now, he is saying stuff like "maybe this is Gods way of telling me my time is up".  He has not said he will hurt himself, but who knows. 

Is this yet another ploy?  The families still don't know what is going on.  We are near bankruptcy.  I'm the only one working.  I'm so frightened.  Today, I plan on telling my parents.  

Thanks for your thoughts.  They really help.

Mechele the first thing i did when i moved to my new place was started going to counseling... its great for anyone but right now it would be a great release for you, forget trying to protect your husband any longer he's not the poor victim here. its time to get your kids alone & be honest with them, their not little children there adults with there own familys & relationships there are some really great books out there & its pretty interesting the things you'll learn about yourself & about all the different emotions your gonna be experiencing its gonna get harder before it gets easier I'm sorry to say. Divorce/seperation is the hardest thing you ever have to deal with in your life beside death of someone you really love. so work on how your feeling right now I know its hard as a mom trying to protect those you love from getting hurt putting your feelings aside like everyone else is more important, its time to stop, its time for you to start healing & learning to understand why you stayed in that kind of relationship? as a mom your not looking for pity you need a little space & understanding from those closet to you & who love you the most in your life (your family & freinds) but you can't start getting that or even moving on intill you open up & start telling people that your about to make some changes in your life. You don't have to tell people everything & why your marrige is over, it isn't anyones business its your. talk with your husband & tell him that your not worried about making this easy on him its about being honest with your kids & yourself. figure out how you are going to tell them & what you want them to know right now.even if its just time apart, your angry with your husband right know because you see the little things he's tried before & they worked, you trying to hide whats happening from those around you might mean your having second thoughts if your really ready to end your marriage? so the less people know about the details the better!